At the time I started writing this post, I am 5 hours and 23 minutes away from my biochemistry exam. I have officially given up any hope in passing this subject and pretty content with repeating it next semester. Although I have tried to study for this subject with the limited time that I have, I realised during the study session that there is no way I can pass. Its impossible to remember half the semester content in one day and two nights.
I regret taking the "advice" to complete the three hardest subject in one semester so that they can be out of the way. All three subjects - Anatomy, Human Physiology and Biochemistry - are very very demanding subjects. The amount of memorisation that goes into each subject is terrifying. I've been able to manage both Anatomy and Human Physiology because there are constant assessments which motivates me to keep on track. Furthermore, they tend to cross over. So while I'm learning about the different organs that make up our gastrointestinal tract, I'll also be learning about the different functions and the pathways which they use to achieve filtration and reabsorption in the kidneys.
On a larger scale, Biochemistry does not inter-relate like Anatomy and Human Physiology does. While I do learn the different chemical pathways that bring about the physiological pathways that functions our organs, it is not as harmonic and the odd one out. Furthermore, I don't have constant assessments that help motivate me to keep up with my study and it is quite a dry subject. Not to mention that there are a few lecturers that could put you to sleep. Unfortunately, I also thought one of my lecturers sounded condescending and hence, tuned out to most of his lecture content.
So yes, I admit to being quite laid-back and lazy with this subject. Which is why I've come to terms with failing this subject and repeating it next semester. I've learnt a valuable lesson (NEVER DO BIOCHEMISTRY WITH TWO OTHER HARDCORE SUBJECTS) and I'll be wiser for next semester. I guess this also gives me a head start to focus on the other half of the lectures I could not memorise in time.
And while it isn't important to note, I do fair better in my studies when I am studying a subject I have interest in. In VCE, I achieved my highest study score of 45 thanks to Information Technology. It was a subject I loved and was quite passionate about. In my first year of university, the subjects I did best in revolved around Physics. By then I've realised I hate subjects that required me to memorise textbook after textbook (like Biology and to an extent, Chemistry).
I'm much more of a practical person - which probably explains why I always did better in laboratory work for Chemistry and Biology. It's so much easier to understand a concept when you've had some experience in seeing how it works in real life. Guess that means I'm more of a visual person too.
Considering how I'm going to fail Biochemistry, I came to realise that it is one of the prerequisite subjects needed to get into Optometry and other medical fields. If I have no interests in any of the subjects required of me, what does that exactly say about the path I'm trying to take? Does this mean that the path I'm trying to pursue is not suited for me? Or does it mean that despite it being required knowledge, I won't have to rely on it to much? Should I pursue a career that's more involved in the laboratory instead?
I'm still very confused about my future.
So yeah, thanks biochem. I'll see you next semester!
"You can't succeed unless you've failed."
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