Biochemistry

At the time I started writing this post, I am 5 hours and 23 minutes away from my biochemistry exam. I have officially given up any hope in passing this subject and pretty content with repeating it next semester. Although I have tried to study for this subject with the limited time that I have, I realised during the study session that there is no way I can pass. Its impossible to remember half the semester content in one day and two nights.

I regret taking the "advice" to complete the three hardest subject in one semester so that they can be out of the way. All three subjects - Anatomy, Human Physiology and Biochemistry - are very very demanding subjects. The amount of memorisation that goes into each subject is terrifying. I've been able to manage both Anatomy and Human Physiology because there are constant assessments which motivates me to keep on track. Furthermore, they tend to cross over. So while I'm learning about the different organs that make up our gastrointestinal tract, I'll also be learning about the different functions and the pathways which they use to achieve filtration and reabsorption in the kidneys.

On a larger scale, Biochemistry does not inter-relate like Anatomy and Human Physiology does. While I do learn the different chemical pathways that bring about the physiological pathways that functions our organs, it is not as harmonic and the odd one out. Furthermore, I don't have constant assessments that help motivate me to keep up with my study and it is quite a dry subject. Not to mention that there are a few lecturers that could put you to sleep. Unfortunately, I also thought one of my lecturers sounded condescending and hence, tuned out to most of his lecture content.

So yes, I admit to being quite laid-back and lazy with this subject. Which is why I've come to terms with failing this subject and repeating it next semester. I've learnt a valuable lesson (NEVER DO BIOCHEMISTRY WITH TWO OTHER HARDCORE SUBJECTS) and I'll be wiser for next semester. I guess this also gives me a head start to focus on the other half of the lectures I could not memorise in time.

And while it isn't important to note, I do fair better in my studies when I am studying a subject I have interest in. In VCE, I achieved my highest study score of 45 thanks to Information Technology. It was a subject I loved and was quite passionate about. In my first year of university, the subjects I did best in revolved around Physics. By then I've realised I hate subjects that required me to memorise textbook after textbook (like Biology and to an extent, Chemistry).

I'm much more of a practical person - which probably explains why I always did better in laboratory work for Chemistry and Biology. It's so much easier to understand a concept when you've had some experience in seeing how it works in real life. Guess that means I'm more of a visual person too.

Considering how I'm going to fail Biochemistry, I came to realise that it is one of the prerequisite subjects needed to get into Optometry and other medical fields. If I have no interests in any of the subjects required of me, what does that exactly say about the path I'm trying to take? Does this mean that the path I'm trying to pursue is not suited for me? Or does it mean that despite it being required knowledge, I won't have to rely on it to much? Should I pursue a career that's more involved in the laboratory instead?

I'm still very confused about my future.

So yeah, thanks biochem. I'll see you next semester!

Maroon 5 - Payphone

My exam studying song.

I the Tri Tops - To My Girlfriend

I recently discovered that one of my favourite "groups" made a comeback in Korea. I still remember how I adored their debut album on my first listen back in 2007. However, there was quite a lot of controversies surrounding them. One member was accused of copying/imitating Jaejoong (lead singer in DBSK). Jaejoong's fans would harrass this guy, online and outside his house, because of his similiar looks. I still remember how they critised him for holding his microphone in a similiar style to Jaejoong. I guess they believed he was out to "replace" dear Jaejoong and they couldn't have that could they?

Even so, I still don't understand what was going through those girl's minds. So what if this guy looked similiar to Jaejoong? So what if he held his microphone in a similiar way? It still doesn't warrant you the right to harrass the poor guy. I remember a statement being released that he was scared to even leave his house. HIS OWN BLOODY HOUSE!! *breathes* I'll rant in another post *breathes*

Anyways, they haven't been consistently releasing material so I was surprised to learn that they went out of hiding this year. I had a listen to their new mini-album and was surprised to find a song that I love sleeping to - To My Girlfriend. However, they have tweaked the song a bit and added a rap in the middle. It seriously messed with my mind for a while. Why change something that was great to begin with? But I guess it was "necessary". It made the song more upbeat and more listeners would tune in to hear Csp rap.





Apparently I uploaded this to my sharing site a long time ago. Here's the link if you're interested: 내 여자 친구에게 (For My Girlfriend).

And here is the new version.

Just a note.

It may seem like I haven't been writing, but I have, honest. It's just that my entries were written on Notepad which was saved onto my USB... and has now gone missing. I wrote about six entries because I decided to utilise the time I have traveling to university. Now that I've lost those entries, I don't really feel like re-writing them. I also tend to blank out when I'm trying to post as opposed to the many thoughts screaming in my head before I sit down in front of the computer.

Flower - Still + Sakura Regret

I used to listen to Japanese music more than Korean. Eventually they balanced each other out, but Korean music has become more dominate these past few years. However, I would like to blame it on the availabity of Japanese music compared to Korean music. Despite how popular it is, there aren't that many sites dedicated to providing new Japanese music. The few that are, which I did follow, have now closed. I'm currently in the process of going through my bookmarks and realise that a lot of sites have died. Cleaning it up and finding new resources will be such a chore.

Anyway, I'v recently started listening to Flower. Yep, Flower. I've got nothing against their name, but finding anything related to them is kind of hard. They're one of EXILE's sister groups, three in total, and probably my favourite one. What's unique about these groups is that there are two singers and the rest are dancers. When I first started listening to EXILE and decided to check out their promotional video, I found it odd that only two people were singing and everyone else just danced. It was a foreign concept, acknowledging that these dancers were part of the group. Over time, I thought it was a brilliant idea.

Now I would like to present to you the two songs that I've had stuck in my head this week. Underneath is just a part of the translation that I liked.

Flower - Still

I’m still in love with you
Even if the scenery that I saw together with you that day changes
I continue to shake with love for you I still remember you
Surely I’m the way I am now because of those days
If possible, I want to tell you “thank you”
credit: verduistering @ LJ

(the song begins at around the two minute mark)

Flower - Sakura Regrets

If you live your life alone no one can betray you
Nothing is certain, I know, but I want something to believe in
credit: verduistering @ LJ